Happy and Sad

That's exactly how I feel today. So so very happy that my angel has started school because she is more than ready but also sad that she is ready!!!! It's very strange. She looked all grown up today and settled in straight away. I'm just oh so proud of her and glad that she stayed home last night ~ she woke up this morning and said "Thanks so much Mummy for letting me stay at my home last night". Any punishment I get will be worth that.

I love you baby girl. So so much. xxxxx

Another Battle...

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Kara starts school on Tuesday. It should be fun and exciting for her and for the most part, that is the case. Of course though, there has to be the usual PITA.

The current court orders that we have in place state that her father is to have her alternate monday evenings. Due to Australia Day, this monday is a public holiday, meaning Kara starts school on Tuesday. Unfortunately, that means she should be going to her father's house tomorrow night. When we went through court, I checked that she was at home for that Sunday night, but stupidly, I didn't realise there was the holiday....

Problem number one ~ Kara truly wants to stay home tomorrow night. I more than positively assured her I would meet her at school on Tuesday but whenever we discuss that, she ends up in tears, demanding to stay home. She just does not want to go. Despite continual encouragement, that has not changed. She is absolutely sure of what SHE wants to do.

Problem number tw0 ~ her father is a selfish *$%#. I explained to him what is going on and he just does not care. He is of the opinion that Kara needs to learn to be comforted by him. Obviously that is correct ~ she has little choice as he is her father but should that lesson be taught on her first day of school? I think not. So, after attempting to make alternative arrangements (swapping the monday to tuesday and him also coming on the first day of school), I have given up. I've just settled Kara after tears (again) because she is worried she is going to be collected tomorrow night. She won't be collected tomorrow night because after 2 years of having to adhere to court orders which cause my girl stress, I am going against this one.

Whatever the consequence of this, it will be worth it if Kara is that bit happier and confident on her first day of her school life.

My Girl is In Love......

For a while now, I have told Kara that when she begins school, she can have her own computer. I have been looking for an appropriate (aka cheap but suitable lmao) one for the past month or so and we picked up an excellent deal on Ebay ~ of course :P

It arrived yesterday and oh my, Kara is just one happy kid :) She wanted to be set up on MSN straight away (to chat to me from the other side of the room!!!!) and we've favourited her sites. I'm so rapt I don't have to share mine anymore!!!

We also found out today that we will be moving houses. I have mixed feelings about this ~ I am rapt at one end because we will be getting a brand new home (and it's perfect for us!!!) but the timing just isn't the best. We have the court trial in 6 weeks and with Kara starting school next week, I just don't think she needs the stress of moving as well. I'll know more about when it will be happening today but it's either next month or 9-12 months away..... I'm hoping for the latter!

xxxx

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

We're getting there..... half of this still needs to go!!!

Kara has WAY too many clothes ~ at a guess, I could perhaps dress 5 children. It's become a little obsessive although over the past 12 months, I've actually stopped buying a lot. Despite that, we have accumulated so much and due to school starting next week, it's just got to go.

I emptied 95% of Kara's wardrobe into the lounge today and culled it by about 1/3 ~ Kara thought it was fabulous LOL.

If you're into Ebay and have a size 4-5 girl, a few thousand items will soon be listed :P

Isn't He Just Gorgeous? !

Kara's little friend had his 5th birthday party yesterday and although the birthday boy ran out of the camera's view ALL day, I got this pic of Jethro, another of her mates.....

Usually when he sees the camera, this is the result.....

...... so I am really happy with the first pic!

We've had another great week ~ we've spent most days staying home and just spending one on one time together.... I think it's hitting Kara that school starts in one week so she doesn't want to go anywhere. I'm trying to think of something special to do this week but still have no clue... perhaps a caravan park for a couple of nights LOL. She'd love it!

xxxx

43 Minutes To Go.....

....... until it's time to get Kara :P

Every second Monday night, Kara goes to her father's house until Tuesday morning. It's usually a time when I do a whirlwind clean of the house and tidy etc..... sometimes though, the time goes sooooo slowly. It's usually when she's been extra clingy and not wanting to leave, like last night. When his car pulled up, she ran up to me and hid behind me so he wouldn't see her. She clasped the couch and said she's not leaving. She was upset. I had to literally pull her off. It kills me. I know she will have to do a lot she doesn't want to do in life and this is one of those things, but it's still not easy. I miss her so much more when she doesn't want to go. Fifteen hours seems like weeks.

With only 2 weeks left before school starts, we have been doing sooooo much!!! I'm not even sure what that is LOL ~ a lot of days we've just been playing allllll day. We've had parties, been to the zoo, done LOTS of swimming and just generally spent time together. I've just loved it. Kara's also grown SO much over the past few weeks. It's quite amazing really ~ there are some days when I feel I'm watching her grow and change before my eyes. She's such an amazing little being.

Some pics from this week........

Kara and George at his 5th Birthday Party at Macca's.

Kara being Kara ~ she's impressed at the outfit she chose......

My Mum's local Owl!!!!!!!!!!

I might bore you all with some zoo pics once I look at them!

xxxx

Can't Sleep....

....it's 1:35am and although I'm buggered, my body just won't sleep. So, of course I sit here going through folder upon folder of photos (of Kara....).

There are a couple from our recent trip to Qld which for whatever reason appeal to me ~ I adore Kara in white, so maybe that's part of it.....

The other day, I was trying to get a decent pic of my girl and she kept squinting ~ I asked her to open her eyes, so she shoved something into her mouth and did as I asked..... maybe squinting would have been better lmao...

This last pic, I just love. I know it's not a 'great' pic by any means but Kara looks so happy. She had just arrived home on Christmas morning and saw all of her presents ~ she was sooooo rapt.

So far, I am loving 2008. There's a fair bit of crap coming up over the next couple of months but I'm managing to block it alllllll out. I've not been able to do that in the past, so I'm hoping the court stuff will be more managable this time round :) Off to try to sleep..... xxx

Our Little Visitor.....

We have been sooooo excited about having our little 'Ted' visit us for a couple of days ~ she came to a pool party with us last night and partied until 12:30 and she is SO adorable. Her Mummy is picking her up tomorrow but Kara thinks we should ask if we can keep her because she's such a good baby LMFAO. I would ask if I thought there was a chance of a yes :P

So now, of course, I want another baby more than ever!!!!!!




Kara insisted on matching Ted ~ soooo cute!!!

At the end of the night (Kara) and Ted when she had her earlier nap!