Oh My Gosh......

ARGHHHHH

Loooooooooooook!!!!!

Last week, the unimaginable happened..... Kara announced she wanted short hair.

I love her long hair. It's been growing for 5 years and I've always been very relieved that she's loved it too. So when she insisted "it's my hair though Mummy, so I should be able to choose", I had to agree.

So, this morning, we went to get it cut.... I absolutely ADORE it! Her little face looks even more divine and she is so happy with it.

It does make her look older though :( My baby is growing too fast.

xxx

Do you think she likes it? :P

Be Careful What You Ask For....

:P

A few of my friends keep saying this to me, given the dreams I have for a certain person's demise.....

Well, now I understand why they say it LOL.

When Kara goes to her father's house, I have tried encouraging her to call me. Of course a part of the reason is for me ~ I love to hear her voice ~ but I also feel it's important she feels she is able to. Likewise, I also encourage her to call her father...

Her response is usually something along the lines of "I don't feel comfortable doing that".....

For the past couple weeks though, Kara has called me. It began on the days when her father decided it was appropriate to go to work for her FIRST long stay with him ~ I got a call at 6:50 am from her and about 4 more followed.

Now, Kara is more than happy to call me. It's great. Except for the fact that the call comes when she wakes up (and her father is still in bed). So yesterday, it was at 7am and today I was lucky ~ it was 7:25am.

The ONLY positive thing about Kara spending time at his house is the occassional sleep in for me...... well, guess what doesn't happen anymore lmfao.

Having said all of that, there's no way I will ask her not to call. I've never loved being woken so early in my life..... I just *wish* it was a little later in the day :)

xxx

(PS I just added the pic because I like it ~ she is just so beautful isn't she?)

Soon We'll Start Charging.....

Meet Sparkle and Twinkle (LMAO).

These are the latest addition to Kara's animal collection.

My friends just laugh now ~ every time they visit, there's a new pet and they give me grief :P

Honestly, I just cannot help it. Kara, since she was a baby, has had an affinity to animals. She's just always loved them and been great with them and I feel it's something I should encourage.... we go to the zoos etc but she says it's just not the same.

So now she is the proud owner of two birds, a cat, a dog, a rat, fish, snails and unfortunately, her stick insect died. She has her hopes set on a rabbit and turtle next but that won't be happening..... not this week anyway :P

Busy Days....

My girl came home on wednesday arvo and for the first 24 hours, we hugged almost constantly. She kept saying it felt like 100 nights, not only 4 but I'm just glad that first 5 day visit is over. Perhaps next time, her father will spend the time with her.... so convenient that his partner is a teacher :P He is such a selfish being.

We've been so busy.

The night K came home, I had her bestie over as a surprise and we had a small welcoming home party. She thought it was the best lol and the smiles on her face were priceless. She saw our lawn for the first time and I made her a sand pit ~ she loooooooves it.

Kara and Evan

Kara seeing the backyard (it was previously a mud pit) and sandpit!!!

For the next few days, we've had friends over and we just haven't stopped. Today we went to Monarto (an open range zoo in outer Adelaide) and after that, we stopped at Hahndorf for strawberry picking. Kara's been somewhat difficult (tired/unsettled) and I feel like all I've done is tell her off all day but there were some nice times despite that.....

Riding a Camel at Monarto Today

Feeding the Giraffes

Strawberry Picking ~ she LOVED this!

She ended the night off with a spa (her new favourite thing to do LOL) and her behaviour improved once I got a splitting headache and she reaslised she'd pushed me too far..... here's hoping for an answering-back free day tomorrow..... :P

Why after she's been a turd and I've told her off do I feel so guilty? I just hate being upset with my girl.

xx

I Need to Vent

I've tried realllllly hard to stay busy for these 5 days that Kara is with her father ~ really hard. I've just laid 50 square metres of turf, built a sandpit and am about to buy the materials for a roof..... I've been so busy.

This morning, I got a 6:50 phonecall. Of course I worry because Kara isn't at home sleeping. She is fine though... she rang me when she woke up to say hello and I asked where her Dad was. He was still asleep (which is fine ). Kara then went on to explain how it feels like she's been there for more than 4 days and she just wants to come home. She misses me and wants to see me. I assured her we would be together tomorrow and that it's important to spend some time with her Daddy (I really do hate lying to her but in these situations, what choice do I have? Do I tell her he's scum? I think not....)

Annnyway, 2 hours later, my mobile rings again and it's Kara again. She tells me she really misses me. She says she is OK which gives me some relief. I asked her what she was doing and where Daddy was. She said he's at work and that she's been staying with Cathy. My blood begins to boil. Actually, I think it may have passed boiling point.

Look, I totally understand that Dan has a partner. Obviously Kara will spend time with her and as hard as that is, as I don't know this woman, I accept that. It doesn't bother me who he sees, so long as Kara is treated with respect.

What infuriates me is this. My baby girl has been upset for weeks. She, for weeks, has cried and said how she doesn't want to go to her Dad's for 1, 2 or 3 sleeps, let alone 5 days (HER words). I have consistently told her it is good for her to spend time with her father. It's no surprise then, when, this morning, she said "Daddy isn't even here so why can't I just come home?". I just have no answer for that. I had to remain calm but I want to see this man suffer. I hate him ~ I know it's not healthy but he is such a naristic, arrogant, power playing pig.

Ahhhh, that feels better.

Belle

Two years ago today, the unthinkable happened. A beautiful family lost their divine 3 year old girl ~ Belle.

Over the past year, I have got to know your Mummy Belle and so far, all that I've seen is an amazing person with a heart of gold. You are just so so so very missed Angel and I wish I had the opportunity to meet you. I wish your Mummy, Daddy and Sister didn't have to experience what they are today ~ missing you so very desperately.

You've made a difference to this world sweet girl. Because of you, many children travel safer than they otherwise would have, including my Kara.

http://isabelle-broadhead.memory-of.com/About.aspx

Something You Don't Often See

My baby went to her father's today for 5 days ~ I'll probably blog 25 times a day to distract my mind.

Today, before she left, we were taking pics of all of her pets. She insisted I take some of the fish tank and so, of course, I did. She got anything she wanted for the past 24 hours LOL.

So, whilst taking a photo, I noticed this......

Off I went to google it and yep, it's a snail penis ROFLMFAO Apparently, they are non-species specific and will mate with just about anything(in this case, a clam)..... it's gross, fascinating and funny (especially to Kara) all at the same time :)

My angel with her pet rat, Violet. She just adores her.....

The Impromptu Road Trip....

ARGGGGGHHHH

Tuesday night, I went to the airport to send my nephews back home to Melbourne.... they are 8 and 12 years old.

Upon our arrival, I took Jaye to the checkin counter and the staff at Tiger Airlines inform me that children under 14 are not allowed to travel unaccompanied ~ not even at an extra expense (****I did not book the flights ~ I would read the conditions lmao....a man did it haha). So, basically, we were stuffed.

The next morning, Kara, Jaye, Zak and I drove to Melbourne. It was not at all planned ~ the animals were not organised, no packing was done, Kara has school still blah blah blah. I feel soooo buggered, although it's also been great to catch up with people. We head home on Monday and I'm not one bit looking foward to the drive.... as good as Kara is.

Today, we met up with some friends at an indoor playground and look at this pic of my daughter and her cousin..... oh the love :P

And this.... I always get roped in to going down the slides :P

Oh and my girl doing her best to induce heart failure in me..... this slide is SO steep.