Yayyyyy

The shed is done!!!!!

After a rollercoaster of a week, the shed was officially completed yesterday!!! Steve had literally 4 rivets to go and sliced his hand open, so the shed had to wait a few extra days.... he had stitches and a tetanus shot and OMG I felt sooo guilty. He finished it yesterday though and I am soooo rapt with it. It's already full of heaps of crap and Kara now has a play room!!! She thought it was happening in a few weeks, so when she arrived home from he whom I dislike immensely, she got the surprise of her life!!!! She wanted it to have an aquatic theme, so she is in looooove with her new Little Mermaid Vanity ~ so adorable.

We've also had such a busy week ~ it's been great but I am sooo tired. I am hanging out for my shopping trip with Ow tomorrow night!!!!! Sooo excited lmao.

Here are some pics from the last few days ~ a bit of a mixture (****note the shed in the background :P )

At Kindy Yesterday for photo day!

The New Playroom!!!

Today at Kindy ~ making cakes in the cubby.

At home today ~ she is soooo cute!!!

What a Week! We Welcome a Cow to Adelaide

LOL

Well, Eden has FINALLY arrived in Adelaide and she IS a cow, so don't take offence to the title LMAO.

Seriously though, it's been fantastic. I have been waiting for a looooooong time to meet Raphaela and have been hanging to see Bruno (who will not stay in front of my camera :( ) and Ted again ~ they are all so adorable.

I am a little worried about Kara though ~ she is in love with Eden and there's not a thing I can do ~ just wait until her sense of taste develops I suppose LOL. Raph loves me (Eden hates that) and I am met my massive cuddles and WOWs whenever she sees me ~ the kid has great taste HAHAHA.

Today Eden rocked up with the girls in their Oilily sets and Kara runs off to find hers ~ OMFG they all looked so cute together.

Ow ~ it's great to have you here. We can chat and chat without needing to rely on MSN/phone now and it's fabbo. We can now be evil together :P

Welcome to SA!!!!!!!

Raph and Kara Meet.......

Kara with her new friend LMAO......

The girls today!!!!......

Miss Ted ~ sooooooo cute!!!....

Just one I love from today!.....

The best one I got of Bruno LOL..... just after they arrived after 4 days in a car!

Happy 4th Birthday Super Princess.....

... and to Sheye, Crayton, Luca, Mason and Ivy ~ you have been in the thoughts of thousands today.

Your gorgeous girl has changed so many lives and added so much perspective.

Happy Birthday Ava ~ you are so very loved and terribly missed.

Slow Down Baby Girl....

... over the past couple of months, Kara has grown so much. Not just in size but in every way. She is such a real little ("big" according to her :P ) girl now ~ not much baby left :(

These were taken at kindy yesterday ~ she loves gardening there and suggested a pic near the broad beans lol. Every second Wednesday, kindy has "Hotdog Day". Kara loves it ~ she won't go near a hotdog (which is fine by me LOL) but she looooves the jelly and icecreams..... She's also going through a pony tail phase and they make her look even more grown up.

Love you loads gorgeous. xxx

Thinking of Ava....

I haven't written much about Ava on this blog but that in no way reflects how much that little Princess has impacted on my (and Kara's) life. Her loss has made many many people realise just what is important and her short three years have left unmeasurable memories. Having only spent 2 days with Ava and her gorgeous Mummy, I almost feel I don't have the right to feel the way I do but she was such a special little girl and spending one hour, one day or one week with her would have made little difference. It only took seconds to see her amazing beauty and there was just something about her.....

Today, on the way to kindy, Kara was upset. It was sudden and she was perfectly happy seconds before. I asked what was wrong and she said she is thinking about Ava ~ that she has been thinking about her for days. She told me she has told everybody she knows about her friend and that she misses her. She really does miss her. She only met her last year for a short time but that's the kind of kid Ava was ~ you fell instantly in love with her. She went on to explain how she knows Ava is in a dreamland now and that the faries are all loving and looking after her. She said she has dream eyes, legs and arms and that she is making her a card to send so that she can catch it in the clouds. She said she just knows Ava is happy and OK.

Kids are amazing. I have never said any of this to Kara ~ it's simply what she believes and I think she must be right.

Ava ~ you are soooo missed and so loved Princess. You have changed so many lives, including mine. Love to your Mummy, Daddy and your brothers and sister. xxxxxx

Six Panels of Metal are about to Change My Life!!!

I hate clutter.

It's a bit of a problem though, actually a huge problem, as I am a massive hoarder. I just hate to throw anything which has the slightest memory attached. As an example, I have the scab from Kara's umbilical cord in a film canaster somewhere LMAO. I also find it really hard to part with clothing, especially Kara's, although I am getting better. This year has made me realise that clothes aren't as important as I make them......

Anyyyyyway, due to my excess crap and my tiny rented house, it's so difficult to keep things ordered here. I also love to sew and am in the process of building that up again, so I need room for my fabric (and there is literally thousands of metres of it....). That is why I have decided to buy a BIG shed!!!!!!!!!!! Well, it's big compared to what it was initially going to be......it started at 1.5 metres square and I ended up getting one which is 3 metres but 2.4 metres. We decided on a cream colourbond (Kara's choice ~ the salesman looked at me strangely as I allowed Kara to choose the colour, style etc...).

It's going to be my new best friend for a while (it arrives on Friday!!!!) and it means Kara can finally get the aquatically themed playroom she has been nagging for :) I am sooooo excited.

After the playroom, I am going to paint all of my bedroom furniture white (it's all mismatched atm), finish Kara's room (FINALLY) and then make Kara's garden.... I need to keep busy while she's at her dad's for the long stays and have decided that each weekend she is there, I will do one task which improves this place.

xxx

Our Three Weeks of BLISS just ended....

.... and it went soooooo fast. Kara just left with her father after 3 weeks of him being away and unfortunately, he made it back (I was going to add a smilie here but I am more serious than joking LOL).

We have had a really good couple of days. Kara decided she wanted to go to the footy yesterday and although Carlton lost, it was a fab day. She got into it and sits there screaming "Carlton, Carlton, Carlton" with 3 claps inbetween. If her hands were busy holding food, she would just say clap, clap, clap LMAO. Here she is ~ she is so adorable.



This morning, as always, she woke up and got into dress ups within minutes. She then found these clip on earrings and adores them.... she's been walking around all morning with her head sooooo straight in case they fall off, with the occassional shake to hear them.



We have court tomorrow (although I found out I don't have to attend YAAAAAY), so Kara will be a massive focus this week (more than usual). I just have to focus on doing fun things with her and accept that what will be will be but it takes my all to do that.

Bring on the next sailing trip ~ perhaps it will be even longer next time :P

What Makes You Happy?

I mean truly happy?

For me, it's clear ~ it's having my girl. Kara is just such a special little person and only a handful of people really know her. She doesn't open up easily but when she does, she is amazing. I was in bed last night thinking about this ~ thinking about what really matters in my life. I was thinking about what we've been through and why it's been so so difficult. It's because it's so hard to see your child suffer; you only want to see smiles and hear giggles. You want to protect them from hurt and when you can't, it's awful.

Then tonight, something else made me happy PMSL. How can a piece of clothing make my heart skip a beat? Why does it give me that buzz lmfao. I just love shopping for Kara and winning this dress on Ebay made me feel happier than it should have :P

Some More Pics!!!

I love these, although I need to work out Photoshop ~ one of my aims for the next 6 months LOL.

These were taken on the way to Melbourne at the Pink Lake ~ Kara's fav place to stop when we drive there. They are a little dark and I need to play with them but they will end up worse pmsl.
The sequin shoes were new and I just realised they are still wrapped in a plastic bag in that mud doh. Hopefully they soak out well :P

We're Home....

Well, after 10 days of being in Melbourne and the snow, we arrived home today and surprisingly, it's nice to be here. About an hour out of Adelaide today, I got all teary as I felt like we were driving back to "he who I call wanker" but knowing he's still floating on water somewhere makes me feel ok about being back. Having said that, sinking in water would make me feel even better..... :P

Sooo, the snow was excellent!!! My camera didn't think so though :( After about 30 mins, it shat itself, so we had to buy a disposable camera which took crappy pics ~ better than nothing though!!! It meant I couldn't get pics of the Kara with her cousins for much of the trip and I hated that..... I love love love my camera :(

I'll think of more exciting things to write about pmsl but I just wanted to get a couple of pics up.

Kara and I have 7 more days together before another court hearing, so keep your fingers crossed for her (and me LOL). I'm shitting myself but trying not to show it....

Kara and Sage about 5 mins after we arrived ~ straight into dressing up!!!

My Snow Princess!!!